Into The Void

INTO THE VOID

Barbara Rose

Introduction

A title such as this needs very little introduction, its presence alone inspires curiosity, and in spite of the inevitable fear that arises at the prospect of exploration, it nevertheless offers an enticing invitation to venture into its hidden depths. Emergence into the light of day sees the chaotic ramblings of the sub conscious mind (evident during both waking and dream states) seamlessly blend with integrated planes of conscious awareness accomplished during deep meditation. This article is therefore offered as a platform where disparate and apparently unrelated ‘threads’ may weave their way into the rich fabric of unity consciousness.

Daath, the Abyss

During the evening I had watched the ‘survivors’ program on the TV. Here 90% of the earth’s population had been wiped out by a flu virus. In this particular episode one of the key figures caught the virus and survived, her immune system obviously holding natural antibodies to fight the disease. Within the story there is a government virology department operating in a sterile environment working on producing a vaccine for the virus. As the antibodies reside in the lungs the only way they can extract them is via post mortem i.e. from a dead body. They found out about the woman who had survived and were trying to locate her with capture inevitably leading to her ultimate death.

So the images held in my mind before going to sleep were of men in sealed black suits wearing gas masks chasing an ordinary woman, living in a small community of survivors, who happened to hold within her the very thing the authority needed. Added to this was my conscious intention to experience within dream state an understanding of the point of creation and the manifestation of the four kabbalistic worlds.

The Dream

It began in a state of chaos with fear and panic being the over-riding emotions. There was an old house inhabited by the survivors. I was there as a body interacting within the drama as part of the group but I was also a consciousness, a watcher, who witnessed it all. A helicopter appeared and government troops poured out. Chaos ensued whilst they searched for the woman. I was part of the chaos but not in a fearful sense, I knew they were not after me and I was safe. This scenario continued for a while as we moved from one place of safety to another within the building and gardens.

The action transferred to a space ship not dissimilar to the star ship ‘Enterprise’. I had no physical body and played no part in the proceedings, merely a witnessing consciousness. There was a large window at the front of the ship revealing the depths of space through which we travelled. However the image filling the limits of the window was not of space, although a small ring of distant stars lined the periphery, it was total darkness, pitch black. It wasn’t a black hole it was dark space.

It seemed to hold within it a shape but the shape was so much a part of the space it was impossible to determine its form. I did not perceive it as threatening in any way neither did the ‘crew’ of the ship who seemed poised in alert readiness for whatever may unfold. We all watched and waited… then the space began to move… the blackness transformed into a huge eye that opened and gazed benevolently at us… it emanated light; phenomenal, brilliant white, golden, diamond clear light, reflecting all the colours of the rainbow and filled the confines of the window through which we watched. I felt a door had been opened. The dark space was a door, a gateway through which the Eye may emanate its light.

The outpouring of light threw the crew into action; commands were issued to close the shutters on the window. They believed they must avoid gazing at the light for it would cause blindness, madness and ultimately destroy them. So the shutters were closed. My witnessing consciousness moved to a radar operator who was adjusting joysticks that manoeuvred cross hairs into position upon a target; the target being the ‘eye’. “We have to kill it. We have to destroy the eye. It is responsible for all the chaos we experience on earth.”

I knew the truth lying behind the words being spoken but it was not in the way the ‘crew’ of the ship interpreted it. I also knew they could not destroy the Eye. Not only would they be destroying themselves but the Eye is All Knowing, All Seeing, All Being. It cannot be destroyed unless the Eye wills it.

Afterward

I allowed the dream to permeate my being. Feeling very humbled by the experience I realised I had been given a taste of ‘Daath’ the hidden sphere in the kabbalah, also known as ‘the Abyss’ or ‘Great Void’. Even now as I relive these events I feel my eyes fill with the sanctity of this wondrous space, this Great Void. I know it to be a gateway to God. The point of creation, as described in the kabbalah, is the point at which Ain Sof (God) contracts into itself. This contraction leaves behind a void, an empty space, into which Ain Sof emanates its light thus creating existence. I realise that first space is Daath. The eye is the ‘Eye of Providence’ a symbol of Daath. My dream revealed the first point of creation; the dark space, the Great Void, the opening of the ‘Eye’, the emanation of pure white light into the void, all being pre-eminent stages in the process of creation.

Divine Darkness

Over the passed month I have become increasingly aware of a deep and penetrating energy enveloping my aura and physical body as does a perfectly fitting and well worn glove. I feel so at home within its embrace I completely surrender allowing the glory of its presence to penetrate the depths of my entire being until I cease to exist. All that remains is deep abiding stillness.

It is here now, filling my body as I write, bringing a gift of such incredible stillness it becomes hard to speak, to find words. I feel it has been travelling a long time and is not of this solar system. It is from… I don’t know where… it is a long long way away… yet it feels very familiar. And it is so full of love but not in a way that we know love, it is not even unconditional love, it is so inclusive and yet it is none of these. It fills me, a vast womb like presence absorbing the entirety of my being, filling my hara, my centre, to touch my most female aspect. Pregnant, I am at once the mother and the blessed child held in the sacred waters of divine darkness. It is dark, incredibly dark, pitch black and charged with infinite possibilities, the safest and most trusted space where I may disappear and not even know I had gone. It appears dark, even feels dark, but it is not. It is brilliant diamond clear light.

It has waited a long long time to be able to connect with the energy of this planet, happening only as a result of the change in consciousness of humanity along with the energetic expansion of mother earth. Natural order is being restored. Vibrations are changing; entities from realms far removed from our own are now able to find resonance with our altered frequencies, whereas before there was only discordance now there is entrainment. And with this entrainment all that was lost, long ago forgotten, submerged within the dark annals of the subconscious mind now finds passage to emerge into the cool light of day…

…a long time ago I set out on a journey. I see a space ship and remember I was an explorer, an anthropologist who visited other worlds to observe and study their species; even visiting earth on occasion. My consciousness was, and still is, alien. But this mission is different. Now my consciousness is more fractured, I have become so immersed in matter over many lifetimes incarnate upon this planet, I have forgotten my alien heritage. I struggle to remember the days where every mission, every task undertaken was in service to the whole, the group; where each discovery, each revelation resulted in ever expanding knowing within the consciousness of this group; where every individual was aware of the very small, but essential, part they played in the machinations of that consciousness and where every individual was also aware they were that consciousness.

And in that forgetting I feel this dark consciousness, as far as planet earth was concerned, had to wait. Nothing could be done it just had to wait. It has held a space for thousands of years but now the individuals, those who chose to immerse themselves in this world of matter through service to mankind, remember. They remember, and once again they hear the calling of their group: for we are many and each one of us has played our part. All that was lost is found; the many are one.

Group Initiation

During an esoteric astrology reading it was suggested I meditate upon the position of Jupiter in my progressed chart. I held this as a symbol in the centre of my third eye before I went to sleep, visualising the symbols, the glyphs, as brilliant white light.

I had a dream and it was one of chaos. It wasn’t pleasant at all although I didn’t file it under the category of nightmare. Following in a similar vein to the dream above it also involved a life threatening virus this one being quite alien; very slug like about 3” long, light in colour, kind of shiny but not slimy, emitting an unfamiliar but somehow attractive glow that stimulated curiosity in its potential victims. Parasitic in nature it entered the host through direct physical contact and remained until the carrier was annihilated. Two people fell as victims to the assault resulting in dramatically altered behavioural patterns prior to their rapid and untimely deaths. I was a physical body in the dream, had identity and played my part within it, but I was also witnessing consciousness. A beach scene in a foreign land came into it at some point towards the end. I didn’t think the virus was connected with it but I was still left with a sense of chaos and destruction.

I woke quite naturally and lie dozing for a while neither awake nor asleep. I brought into mind the symbol, held it there, and then let it go. Before long an image appeared so vivid I see it clearly, even now.

The landscape was somewhat alien in appearance, quite dark and barren, I had a sense it lay at the very edge of the world. Upon the land and stretching almost as far as the eye could see was an army of figures. They were human beings but the term ‘figures’ is a far more apt description for they held no distinguishing features, they were of uniform height and form, grey in colour with not a shred of clothing worn between them. A throng of clay marionettes, benign ‘cyber men’, benevolent ‘borg’ each and every one standing as one being awaiting the natural outcome of events that have been bearing fruit since beginning less time. And filling the entire panorama, casting shafts of radiant light upon the expectant faces of those at the centre of the entourage, sat a joyous, vibrant and incandescent spiritual sun, glowing in resplendent glory of divine emanation.

There was an air of patient anticipation, surrender, acceptance where not a sound was heard, where not a single outpouring of breath disturbed the air, where not even a stray thought could distort the quiet inevitability of this profound and momentous occasion. This was an invitation, an initiation. A group soul, comprising the consciousnesses of many individuals united in purpose, had arrived at a consummate stage in evolution where they may move forward, as a group, in divine service. From this point forward individual motivation would be expressed only so far as it served the purpose of the group as an outpouring of Divine Will.

Although my physical body was amongst those who stood and faced the light, there was no individual consciousness not even witnessing consciousness. My body was there but I did not know which one of the figures was my body, it really didn’t matter because the predominating awareness was that of the group, the soul; there was no individual ‘me’, in any form, within it. And I sensed within the shadows around the central illuminated group hundreds more waiting, as if the first group initiation facilitated the enabling of more and more groups to be embraced in a similar manner; like a domino effect where once the process had begun it was impossible to stop.

Afterward

The group was not a group in this physical dimension. Even though physical bodies were evident I felt individual consciousnesses had come together from all over the planet (and beyond). I feel initiation on the subtle planes enables recognition to manifest in this realm where group members know each other on some level and automatically act in accord with group purpose as a fulfilment of the divine plan. Group consciousness and the work in this realm will become more apparent whether these souls meet in physical form or not.

The unfolding of the divine plan ripens in the life of the individual as awareness of group consciousness becomes more apparent in each responsible enactment of divine purpose. The primary task of each individual being to honour the consciousness of the group, the whole, regardless of the task they are undertaking in this physical reality.

Understanding

These understandings have arisen through meditation and contemplation of the foregoing article. Several aspects share common ground within each of these disparate ‘threads’: chaos, fear, death, destruction, and alienation on the one hand with contrasting themes: diamond clear radiant light, the All-seeing, All knowing ‘Eye’ etc, being at the opposing end of the spectrum. An integrating presence uniting these diverse forces lies with the witnessing consciousness evident throughout.

Group Consciousness (see diagram)

Understanding the meaning of a soul infused personality becomes apparent when viewed from the perspective of the soul. The soul has many personalities through which it may grow and evolve and I am but one. It is not my soul; I am a fragment of it. The army of clay figures are all fragments of one soul (this may embrace fragments from others worlds) arriving at similar points of awareness, and it is through this inner knowing that the soul may be invited to a higher plane of consciousness; this is group initiation. Many souls exist upon the plane of souls forming brotherhoods of even more highly evolved souls. They in turn form even larger, more expansive, refined vibrations of awareness. Even the monads are many. Aspects of all these levels are accessible through the soul infused personality.

I realise the minute part I play in the grand universal plan, how I am but a fragment of one soul, and that one soul but a fragment of an even larger brotherhood of souls, I am but a single celled organism within a vast being of infinite omniscience. And yet I also see the essential part I play in the evolution of that divine plan. In being willing to surrender, to face death in many forms, I as an expression of the soul, facilitate the order of group initiation.

In terms of outward pursuits; teaching, healing, working etc. in many ways it doesn’t really matter what I as a personality ‘do’ on this earth. The act of surrender perpetuated daily, moment by moment, is service in itself. It is a service that doesn’t attract any outward recognition which further enhances the light of the soul whilst at the same time diminishing ego reward.

In a like manner the essence of true healing and teaching are actuated. An outpouring of the One Light places the entirety of existence in a continuous arrangement of receiving. The teacher/healer in surrendering, in removing personality desires and agendas to teach, to impart, to heal, to fix, becomes a clear channel through which the light of God may flow through. Receptivity on the part of the student/patient enables this light to flow from one channel into the other. The only part in the process played by the personality is that of surrender; it does not teach, it does not heal, it simply gets out of the way.

‘Daath’ and Divine Darkness

Daath is a gateway. It is a space, a Great Void, which holds within it the entirety of existence. In the kabbalistic Tree of Life it is the sphere of higher knowledge, of inner knowing where nothing is taught yet everything is known. It is without definitive paths leading to the remaining ten spheres and yet is in intimate relationship with all, including that of the highest sphere, the Divine Light of Emanation. The ways of this mysterious sphere are hidden and become visible only with the light of inner understanding. As such it may emerge, quite spontaneously, with exploration of any sphere ultimately leading to descent into and communion with the Abyss.

Associated with the throat in the eastern chakra system and the vesica piscis in sacred geometry it is clearly a pathway to communion and an instigator of creativity, the supreme expression of which is the creation of life itself in its many and varied forms. Daath is a doorway to anywhere and anything but in order to partake of the rich nectar held at its core the personality must take a giant leap into the great unknown, it must surrender every idea, every notion, and every belief of which it perceives itself to be, and embrace the darkness of its own nature; the antithesis of all that is safe and all that is known. This is the chaos, destruction and death experienced during dream state in the accounts above.

However this darkness, as also mentioned above, is the most trusted and safest place any personality could hope to encounter where surrender is the most natural, and indeed only, response to its benevolent presence; it is a space ‘where I may disappear and not even know I had gone’. Its true nature is divine; Divine Darkness. Holding everything yet is nothing, a space of infinite stillness, infinite patience, infinite possibilities, infinite darkness that is absolute perfection. Yet this space is only arrived at through apparent chaos, destruction and death from the perspective of the ego self. There has to be an absolute let go where there is no ego, no self not even a ‘higher self’ or soul. There is nothing, absolutely nothing related to identity in any form.

And in absolute nothingness truth may be realised. In unconditionally embracing the dark, in allowing its mystic essence to enfold, absorb and permeate every aspect of being, the dark is transformed. As the self gives in to its embrace, dissolving completely, it becomes the very essence of dark, and with this immersion the light spontaneously arises from within. The infinite light of Daath can only be realised through total embracing of its dark. In supreme absorption, in consummate blackness, the light emerges triumphant.

Divine darkness is a receptive state. There is nothing to fix and nothing to impart all is absolute perfection and all is known; all is dark and all is light. But the key lies in total surrender. Chaos, death, destruction and disease all must be embraced with the highest reward being absolute stillness from which anything is possible. In surrender and embracing of all, moment by moment, there is nothing for the personality to ‘do’ but to receive, embrace, appreciate and welcome life. Simply receive. And in this receiving there is so much it is able to give.

Synthesis

In order to bring this article to its inevitable conclusion I must create a means whereby the disparate threads above may come together as one crowning truth. The connection between Daath and Divine Darkness has already been established along with identification of common themes: chaos, death, disease, dark and light, alienation etc. but what of links between Daath and group initiation? What do Daath and Divine Darkness have to do with group consciousness and soul initiation?

Surely when the concept of ‘groups’ and ‘souls’ are introduced it conjures up yet more identities, albeit on a far larger scale, in terms of conscious awareness. This would certainly be true when viewed from superficial perspectives taking the literal meanings of each contrasting ‘thread’. However if we look beneath the surface to the essence, the underlying energy, flowing through each of these forces we find a glorious dance of synchronicity and union that cannot fail to be an outpouring and ultimate expression of Divine Will.

Daath is Divine Darkness; a profound space where dynamic stillness is charged with infinite potential, where all forms and identities are broken apart to be reformed in accordance with Divine Will. The womb of creation, holding and embracing everything whilst in essence being no thing, it is without doubt the most creative force in the entire universe. Its intimate connection with Divine Will cannot be disputed; the book of Genesis clearly describes the part played by both ‘void’ and ‘darkness’ in creation of heaven and earth:

“And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep.” Genesis 1-2

The next verse continues with the outpouring of light as an expression of the Will of God, also alluding to the association of sound, the voice and the throat chakra as playing essential parts in the unfolding of this Divine Plan for creation:

“And God said, Let there be light; and there was light” Genesis 1-3

In the light of this understanding we may turn our attention once more to the collective consciousness of the ‘clay army’ and find their whole demeanour to be in accord with the breakdown of personal identity as associated with the sphere of Daath. Still, in essence, they wait patiently for the outcome of events, timescale being unimportant, for they know transformation from darkness to light is inevitable. Their awareness is one of group consciousness; they know this sequence of events will be perpetuated over and over again as part of a continuous process of destruction and renewal. Attachment to any form, even to that of the group, is futile as its future transmutation is inevitable.

We have only to observe the cycles within our own world to find natural order in decay and renewal; changing of seasons, ebb and flow of tides, night and day, life and death, each one of these bears testament to the powerful creative forces at play even at this physical level of reality. The evolution of consciousness, through personality, soul and beyond, is no less subject to natural order than is our physical world. Soul integration, group initiation, every plane of existence from the smallest atom to the highest vibrations of light are subject to this same universal order of divine purpose; there are no exceptions. This is the glorious dance of synchronised ubiquity linking every disparate thread within this article. Alignment with this cosmic ordering, through the service of surrender, enables the individual to evolve into ever more refined vibrations of light, the ultimate reward being complete dissolution of the self into the One Limitless Light.

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